my [short] thoughts on Twilight

I just thought you should know that I love to hate Twilight. I actually like it, but it's so much more fun to hate on it. Try it sometime ;)

my life as of now

Okay, so here's the thing. I switched schools, yeah? But now I'm not even invited to my best friend's birthday parties. I mean I was, but then they went without telling me when and where it was. :| ARGH it makes me so sad. Like my only friends are the 'convienant' ones I was reading somewhere that you're only friends with them because you need them and they need you and you just see them everyday. Apparently I have no others and since I don't see those friends every day they no longer like me or something I don't know maybe they just forget about me which isn't really that much better.

My anti-social-ism

Honest to God, why do I hate people? I'm so antisocial and I hate it. I just want to be close with people, but I find it so hard. Maybe it's because I move so often.. I went to three different schools last year [four times] long story, but before that I'd been to 5 I believe in 8 years :|. But I blame other things for .. pretty much everything so I think it's because I'm lazy and unmotivated. If I'm happier to sit at home [not necessarily "happier" but it causes less work..] instead of say.. going to the mall and meeting new people with my friends then HELL I'll do it.. and another reason for not going to the mall today is because I'm so darn self-conscious. Especially of my weight.. turns out my dad's only 5 pounds heavier than me :| like wowza :P Seriously though I need to lose some weight and maybe I will.. I don't get any excercise, but I got sick a few days ago and when I get sick I am demanded to drink a lot of water so that's what I've been doing and we got this new water system that's supposedly REALLY good and anyway so I've had like 2 litres, then 1 1/2, then 3 in the last three days, which is freaking awesome compared to my otherwise ZERO glasses everday. Anyway back to the main topic of my anti-socialism.. I refuse to go to my grandparents house.. ALL THE TIME and I hate taking money from them even though they ARE going to die soon and my cousins are going to get every last penny they have and they DEFINITELY will not share. But honestly folks, what the heck.. why can't I have the decency to go see my grandparents before they die?! I'm just so damn lazy I don't want to move and I never get excercise and I'm just a big fat lard of fat which is funny cause I'm pretty sure lard IS fat. Anyway just thought you should know of my anti-socialness

so long

my first one

Okaiee. yeah i know lame name, right? but you try to come up with a better one at 2:50 something am while waiting for your Scrubs season 5 episode 16 I believe.. to lead painfully slow. on second hand.. don't because it'll probably be better than avana-oasis. anyhoo

SCHOOL IS IN LIKE 3 DAYS!!!!

And not only that, but I'm going to a new school... for my second last year [for some reason i'm fine with saying second last year, but a little hesitant about saying grade 11]

anyway i'll add more later when it's not this late at night .. early in the morning

also i'm sick and slept ALL freaking day yesterday, but it was my last free day cause i'm busy every other day from now till tuesday [school] and yesterday i couldn't fall asleep till 6 am :O